oh, he loves me like crazy..i see it, i feel it, for sure, 1000%.
thing is, i had always thought that when I get married one day, I would start my own family (from scratch), and have my first kid with someone for the first time (for both of us) ect..and many more things. I'm definately "a good catch" for him (I don;t want to sound full of myself in any way).. I know that I'll never be able to love his kid the way I would love my own*(when I have them). And not only that, but there are all these invisible strings connecting him to his ex-wife...and obviously everything revolves around his kid. He loves his kid to death (as any parent does), so naturally it is a priority for him (and I would expect and want it to be). But, just thinking ahead, about him having to continue to pay alimony for his kid, not being able maybe to move elsewhere (another country) ect, having to resolve problems with his ex-wife...there are so many things that worry me..I feel that my life will always have to depend on the decisions his ex and him will be taking for their son.. And that's just one of many things.. What about old age? I mean, 12 years is a significant difference. Right now, we get along great, but what will happen in 10 years? 15? 20? I know one thing he loves about my character is that I bring a lot of peace and tranquility to his life. But I feel that he depends on me being there to feel good at all. I've become his "aspirin"..I love him very very much, and we have such a strong bond..but I'm very worried..My parents and brother are against me moving ahead with him, for the three reasons I stated above( divorced, much older, kid)..He's a great guy though, and if it weren;t for all these "issues" I would seriously consider moving the relatinship forward. But I'm hesitating big time now...
