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i feel a little silly posting about this, but ive been reading some other posts, and a bunch of you have some amazing things to say/advice.. so i thought i would give it a shot.

Im currently studying abroad in England for my 3rd year in college. I lost my virginity 1st year in college.. except it was sort of a SHAFTED situation. i was a real bitch because we basically made out for 2 hours, then i decided i was ready to have sex.. and we literally went at it for about 2 minutes and then i asked him to stop .. because it was just so BLEH. yeah yeah, i know i should have just saw what happened.. . well we tried again the next night (a few different positions, none for more than a min or two).. but basically BOTH NIGHTS i asked him to STOP and neither of us came, or anything of the sort.

so that was TWO YEARS AGO. since it wasnt a "REAL" or a GOOD sexual experience, i always joke im still 1/4th a virgin (yeah yeah, its not true). but i guess there was no problem for me emotionally then b/c i knew he loved me, and i cared for him.. but turns out a week after i ended up breaking up with him (so i basically had the upperhand.. and no worries?)

FOR MY SITUATION NOWWWWWW.... 2 weeks ago i ended up making out with my brit friend's best friend (they are british.. so from here). he got my number from our mutual friend..and we've kept in touch texting for the past two weeks here and there (the big thing to do here in europe). well now the thing is.. in a few days he will be visiting...

Lately I've been feeling I'm ready to have sex again. Or to try for a "good"/"normal"/satisfying sexual experience. The only thing that I am worried about, is "getting attached" or just, well.. feeling used or what not afterwards? I dont know, ladies.. what do you think? I've been trying to debate whether I'd be ready to just have "casual sex" with this guy.. but take into consideration that we DEF would not date or become an item after this weekend, or anything like that. It would just be living in the moment. I guess what I'm scared of, is that after we have sex.. I would need for some .. kind of emotional .. comforting. (for lack of better word) Just perhaps, well I don't know if I'd be chil with him being "BLAH" afterwards??? What are GUYS usually like? I guess thats super general and depends on the guy. I'm 20 and he's only about to turn 19 in January (I CANNOT BELIEVE IM GOING FOR A YOUNG GUY BTW HAHA) ... also just worried because hes still just this goofy, immature, kid who makes me laugh? AHHH.. i dont know. help? Sorry i ramble so much...