Gilda, I'm glad to hear you are recovering so well. Have fun at school
Your posts have a lot of "what ifs", "coulda beens", and "never were's". Sure, things might have been different today if circumstances were different; but they weren't. There's no sense trying to change the past- just keep your head up and think about where you are now and the possibilities for the future.
There are people around you now that love, support and care for you. Celebrate your own love for them, for they will not let you down.