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I have some experience in this department....
So you got cheated on, you rationalize and search for reasons to justify her actions- bullshit or not, you get over it. Then it happens again and you could just kill yourself. You feel like such a fucking moron for letting yourself feel this way again.
So I'm guessing it's right about here that you tell yourself to never let it happen again. So what's the answer? Well you can hate them but that doesn't really work out, I can tell you that. You can be hyper aware of the signs next time, and see if this new fucking bitch is cheating on you. She'll get tired of it and dump you for treating her like some jealous asshole. I don't know what's going to work but I can tell you what I did...
I painted all the woodwork (baseboards, chair-rails, door jams, etc) in my house, blasted the most terrible country-"my gir just ran off with my dog and now I sure miss my dog" music. Old blues, angry metal. Basically I just silently wallowed while I diligently panted the house. It took me two weeks to finish the house. I charged myself a thousand dollars and spent it on a pretty decent mountain bike. I rode the bike and listened to more poor-me music until I couldn't stand what a whiney one-track-mind pussy I had become. That's when I was ready to change my attitude.
I didn't pull any punches with the next girl and she didn't pull any with me. We're all cool now. I don't even think about it anymore.
Bottom line, you have to make yourself get over it. Gain back your self respect and work from there.
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The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win you're still a rat
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