The sad fact is that there's not much anyone can do or say that can change your subconscious mind, which is where all of this is happening. Your logical mind is saying "move on" but your subconscious mind is still holding out hope for your original dreams to come true. It's a battle you're having with yourself.
Like a drug addiction, you need to work at getting over this guy. If you want to try something different there's a NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) trick called anchoring that can train your subconscious. Put a rubber band on your wrist so that you can pull on it and let it snap back giving a small sting on your skin. This is the trigger. At the same time say a message such as;
"He is the source of my pain, not my happiness."
ONLY snap the band when he comes to mind and you must do this over time and each time your mind wanders in that direction or when you have contact with him. Just as you learned to love him, you've now got to learn how to let the dream of him go.
I know this sounds bizarre, but it really does work and not just for getting over someone. I use it to remind myself of a very strong moment in my life so that I can draw on that when I'm feeling down or in an awkward position. It doesn't have to be a rubber band either. I do it with a watch and right in front of people without them even knowing it.
And yes, I can understand how you feel being around people that think you've got it made while your own opinion is the opposite. I went through that before and still do on occasion. That's when I need to snap myself back to reality and realize how good I've got it and how much is available to me if I just have to reach out and accept it.
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