maleficent

I've never been pregnant, but I can imagine I would experience similar feelings if I were in your shoes. Don't beat yourself up over the way your are feeling, from everything I have read, those feelings are normal -- just arent spoken of because everyone is supposed to be happy about bringing a new life into the world..

Having thoughts that your child will be born with birth defects, and that it will be your fault, is also a very normal reaction... again.. give yourself a break there.

I applaud you for starting t his thread, it must have been really difficult for you to write, and I hope that by writing it down, and by the support that you will get here, will do a little bit to ease your burden.

Your hormones are going more than alittle crazy right now.. that's gonna be partly to blame for your wanting to cry, and whatever else is going on in your head.

I assume you are getting prenatal care. Please.. please.. talk to your doctor, or nurse practioner, whoever is monitoring your pregnancy, it's confidential... you will get reassurance that you need, and they need to be aware they you aren't feeling 100 percent...

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