Feeling a little odd about things.
So last fall I separated from my wife. I moved in with the folks, she's in the house with the kids (20, 18, going on 14 and 12). An amicable thing, no sound and fury just a realization it was over more or less. We even maintained a sporadic intimacy - on her invites but happy to sleep over upon occassion.
Since the separation she's changed her mind and realized that perhaps if she'd handled herself a bit different ... but I know it's over. Anyway, she's a lady who has to have love so she has used a dating service to go for coffee and such with some guys. I volunteered to take some photos, we went through them to get a profile picture up, and I even loaded it on her site for her.
So she is having a date with a guy from out of town who's coming in and they'll go out for the afternoon and then she's making the two of them dinner. I will take the younger 2 for the afternoon/evening (the later the better she says) and the older ones will be out of the picture.
I'm not sure what the purpose of this post is other that to say I do find this a bit - odd, or unsettling - probably because something I've been so used to for so long is growing in a direction that I am not really part of. What post-partum thoughts would people have to share - what do they see anew, or different, or again in times like this?
I've caused this example of life going on by my not moving back - I've maintained a position that really forces the changes here, but it is an emotional time nonetheless. I guess I am lonely and want some tfp viewpoints on their separations.
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And now to disengage the clutch of the forebrain ...
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