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Hey everyone,
actually, we are engaged, to be married in 5 months, which Im ecstatic about. What do I miss ?Before if I got an urge to find an asian woman with DD breasts, I could, and I could call her and have sex with her. If I wanted a MILF type, I could have that too.
In my younger days I watched a lot of porn, and I was able to alleviate that from going to prostitutes. I could literally place myself in that porn by seeinga prostitute.
Yes, now we can roleplay, and do all of that, but it isn't the same.
I just want to clarify, that my problem is ourely sex related. I love her more than anything in the world, and we are getting married.
There are so many prostitutes, yound old, black, chinese, big tits, small...etc. It was all about variety. What fantasy I had that day...now, yes I can have sex whenever I want without paying, but it's just different.
WE talk about this all of the time, and she is supportive, she feels bad for me, because of what I have done in the past. She knows how guilty I feel, and wants that to end. This all makes me feel guilty because she feels that she cannot satisfy me. She can satisfy me, but my past is just making me want more.
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