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I was married at eighteen to a man I thought I'd be with forever. I thought I'd die without him & that we were meant to be together, in the great scheme of things. After several years of his drug & alcohol abuse the marriage finally dissolved & I met a man who made me feel young again & I started a life with him.
I did not, however feel the great 'I'd die for him' love I had felt for my first husband. But I loved him just the same, I just never got lost in the feeling. Then one day I came home to find he had collapsed & to make a long story short, he died three days later.
Now I am with a gentle loving caring man, and I love & adore him. However its still not the earth shaking feeling I had with my first husband. I often wonder if it was because I was young, I had such an overwhelming feeling? I had better expectations? or maybe after such losses one naturally holds a little back, avoiding circumstancial pain?
I really don't have the answer. I no longer believe in pre-destined matches. 'Meant' to be together? I doubt it. You just got lucky.
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