Yeah she was a little pissed.
I wrote her a letter, told her she was getting a letter with her card and she said the night before Valentines Day, "Please don't tell me you love me. Did you write you love me?" I said, "I did." She just kind of squeezed my hand and fell asleep. I gave her chocolates and a letter toting card when we went to dinner and she read my card while I wasn't there because she didn't want me to see her reaction. I wanted to be there so I could show her I didn't write her the letter because I couldn't say any of it, but I had to drive my own car down to her place so I could leave in the morning. I got there and we had a little talk. She said she didn't want to know and I told her not to ask me to keep that to myself.
She's not ready to devote herself to me because she's apparently afraid of something. As to what that is, I have no clue. I've been trying to figure it out for a while.
It's frustrating, I don't know where I am with her sometimes. She'll say a lot about how wonderful I am to her, how she feels safe with me, how hard she's fallen for me and how much her friends like me. She won't tell me what's going on with her though. I don't really know what to do about it since I have no clue what the problem is. She likes me, that's clear. I'll just have to figure out what's keeping her from me, maybe I'll ask her friend. Regardless, I'm going to stick around and give her some time to sort it out while I go to school. It would make me a very happy man to hear her tell me how she feels, but I'm not going to lose any sleep over it.
At the very least I got laid. So happy Valentines Day.
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