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I used to feel the same way, and then I went and screwed up his love, so now I am on the opposite end. He'd finally gotten me to believe that I deserved his love (at least most of the time I believed) and then during a very rocky point in my emotions, I proved to him that I didn't deserve it (by admitting to my affair, and having lied to him when it happened, and thus lying every day after by not telling him), and he still loved me! until it sunk in.
We've been through some really rough times since then, but we're working on it... or I've been working, and he's been healing, and now we're both working on it.
I think I deserve love, but I know I have to earn it back, it goes hand in hand with trust.
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