CityOfAngels

I'm a 20 year old male. Throughout my life, I've always been attracted to girls and women of all shapes, colors, and ages. When I was in kindergarten, I was attracted to my brother's girlfriend, who was in the 2nd grade. As a freshman in high school, I was attracted to girls in all grades. When I was a senior in high school, I went out with a freshman girl. When I was 18, I lost my virginity to a 17 year old, and the second girl I had sex with was 16 (I was still 18 at the time).

But now I'm 20. I thought things would change by the time I reached the big 2-0. I thought that younger girls would look too young to me and I would only be attracted to women 18 and older. But such is not the case. Granted, according to my tastes, anyone under 16 is too young, but that's just my tastes. According to LAW, anyone under 18 is too young.

Before you go and call me a sicko, I just want to let you know I don't plan to have sexual relations with any underage girls. That would just be wrong. But I have to acknowledge the attraction I feel with some girls. It's not a fetish of mine or anything; I like women my age, and I'm even attracted to women much older than I. It's just I see a girl or woman that I'm attracted to, and that's that: I'm attracted to her.

What I'm asking is having these attractions grounds for seeing some sort of doctor about? Is it wrong to be attracted to a 17 year old girl when you're a 20 year old man?

To be more specific, here's my story: I have a lot of younger friends, since most I met while playing basketball or at church. When in high school, I had friends of all ages, and that's pretty much how it's always been. So one friend of mine, who is 18, has a very attractive 17 year old sister. I go to his house to hang out with him, and when I do, I literally have to force myself not to flirt with her. It feels wrong because based on society's standards, it IS wrong. I keep this attraction hidden because I fear what my friends would think of me if they knew I was attracted to a 17 year old girl. I mean, I know that my 18 year old friend thinks highly enough of me to accept me as his sister's boyfriend (if that ever were to happen, not that it is or has), but I can't seem to predict him NOT feeling wierd about the age difference.

Before I get way too ahead of myself, let me shy away from that story and go to other examples. My 26 year old friend was telling me a story about how his buddies always sit in these bleachers at their college because it gives them a great view of the high school cheerleaders who practice on their football field. My first response was, "Dude, you're sick! You're 26!" And his reply was, "Man, we may be getting older, but they don't get any less hot!" To an extent, he made a valid point there.

Also, I think about how age differences don't mean a thing as long as the 18 year milestone has been surpassed. My father, who is almost 60, has had an ongoing Playboy subscription for as long as I can remember. Playboy depicts nude women from ages 19-25! Society thinks that's acceptable, but then if you twist it around with math, that's like a 40 year old getting hot over a naked infant!

I know there are many different views on this subject, but I just wanted to know: Am I alone on this? Or are these attractions something that ALL men have to deal with? And a side question: If I were to have a non-sexual, yet emotionally intimate relationship with a 17 year old, would that be socially unacceptable?

Ah...the confusion. I hope this isn't too taboo for these boards.

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