Damn it man! You're 21! Life is just beginning and you have the most amazing opportunities ahead of you. Losing your friends could almost be a good thing since you will be able to step out into the world with your eyes open on your own, making your own mind up about things without being influenced by others. Seriously this is a good thing. Of course your life looks scary at the moment, you've spent your whole life so far at school where everything is planned and layed out neatly before you. Don't mistake the unknown for something to be scared of - it is instead an amazing an exciting thing. Your girlfriend is scared, she needs someone to cling to - We all need comfort, but you don't have to let her hold you back. This is your life, live it! People love independance, they are attracted to it, and they find it admirable coming from someone as young as yourself. Always trust your instincts - they are always right. Just be careful not to let what you want confuse you into disregarding what you already know. If you truely believe your girlfriend isn't the one for you, then it's probably true - you will feel pain if you breakup, but it's impossible to care for someone and not feel pain when you break up. It's natural. What's the worst that can happen? Do you believe in your abilities? Sure you've had a tough time, but you must know deep down that you can do it. Enjoy that feeling of pride, let it feed you and launch you into an amazing life that, really, hasn't even begun yet. Honestly, it gets so much better - believe me it does! - just don't settle for second best on the way and realise that it isn't going to be easy, there will be tough times ahead, but you can do it! And the truth is, deep down you already *know* you can do it.
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