So I've put this in Titled Living vs. Sex cause, well.. there's no physical lust...
I've found that there's no sexual wanting of girls that I fall in love with (although not totally complete love, it's more like a really really really strong crush hehe). I'd like to be close to them (there's 3 I've felt like this for.. one was a long-time-girlfriend), and stuff like that (like being able to hold them), but there's no lust there. It does my head in when I try to sit and think about it.... I try to figure out how I can feel so strongly about someone, and be heartbroken if stuff goes wrong, and yet there's no sexual feelings for them. I can never come to a real answer.
I've tried having girlfriends just because I've been sexually attracted to them and those relationships never work out (surprise, surprise). The one girlfriend I've had out of the three girls I've fallen in love with, we did alright together for a while. I loved her (she was my first love). Sex was good (the old 'even when it's bad it's good'.. there was no way I couldn't want it hehe).. but it wasn't like I felt a real strong pull towards her physically. It was her personality I fell in love with. I think the "no physical attraction" thing eventually ended it.. as it was driving me nuts.
So anyways, long story short (too late)... do other people have this feeling? I can't imagine married couples feel like this (I imagine when I find someone I love AND am physically attracted to, I'll marry her
). How do you handle it?
Just trying to find some answers to something that's bugged me (and likely hindered me) since I hit puberty
.