Well I felt exactly like you do about a year ago. I did not like it the first time at all though. Now that it doesnt hurt as bad, I love it. My suggestion is..as bad as this sounds, try to go to the bathroom first if you know you are going to do it. Some people do use enemas and I guess that works very well to. I dont know about you but it makes it alot less enjoyable when we use lube that warms up, so I bought plain KY Jelly....not the red bottle. If something weird should happen, try not to feel upset about it. He knows what the possibilities are when it comes to that I am sure. Also, I do not like the feeling of my SO cumming in there. It is not a comfortable feeling at all, and the feeling stays with you for a while. Not fun. Also, I am sure you already know, but under no circumstances let him put it back in the front after it has been in your ass.....Guaranteed UTI and that is even more uncomfortable than any of it. Good luck
