You might want to look into some antianxiety medication, or at the very least some therapy if you're not into meds. I experienced much the same things a few years ago - uncontrollable thoughts, feeling like my brain was "stuck" thinking about unpleasant, unproductive things.
You do have control over your mind, it's just going to take some "exercise" to get reliable at it. Think of it this way: you have some mental habits that have been built up over time. These mental habits have worn "paths" in your neural circuitry. When you're stressed in some way, your thoughts take the path of least resistance: anxiety, negative thoughts, things you know are not best for you. But before you can really do anything about it, your brain has already gone in a particular, familiar direction. It's going to take some practice to wear a new pathway for those thoughts to take.
I would start with a good therapist who can recommend some exercises and perhaps some medication to help get you through the transition period when you're "rewiring" your brain.
Best of luck!
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