i kind of know what you're talking about anti-fishstick. it's hard to make friends based on superficial characteristics such as skin type. that's why all those celebrity relationships that are based only on beauty and fame end in flames. the other philipino americans you met had parents with similar parenting styles in common, and it sounds like all you had in common with them was what you looked like.
and i'm sorry to hear it caused you to feel guilt--us people who don't belong in any subculture can relate. as nice as it is to be an individual, most everyone craves to belong in a group at some point in their lives. hope you enjoy those square dances at the 4H club
