Johnny Rotten

I don't mean to offend, but it sounds like you really don't believe in monogamy, given the past that you've shared with us. You mention cheating with one GF and having a long-term affair with another. I'm no psychologist, but this seems to be a pattern I've seen with people who have low self-esteem--they're attracted to unstable relationships because they don't think they deserve better, nor do they think they could do better if they tried.

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