The Crazy going through your head

The brain is a weird thing.

It thinks up all types of things...crazy, violent, disgusting, unethical, dirty, pathetic...and so on.

I'm a pretty decent guy, responsible, ethical, caring, intelligent...nice guy.

But the shit that goes through my head...OMG!!
Those instant flashes of thought, reaction, paranoia, anxiety, envy, pettiness, violence...and more.

The only thing that see between me and a bad person...is that it goes away and I don't act on it.

See...the thing is...I think EVERYONE has this.
And the only difference between typical citizens and those who do bad things,
are that they let it happen...they followed-thru on their Crazy.

Now, good people do bad things too...a moment, an incident, a situation.
That bad thing may not be totally impacting.
Or it was not long-term or severe.
Or it wasn't caught...or the person forgets about it...or denies it to themselves.

The bully you want to kill briefly.
The money you find in the register..."it's yours...or no one will miss it..."
The SO's sister you find REALLY attractive despite your love for the SO.
and perhaps even deeper, darker things...

Psychology calls this the Id.
This shit, this CRAZY that goes through your head.

What do you think? Give an example...please something SAFE.
I don't want to hear anything bad...nor have to report you.

With all the crazy going through your head, I'm sure you can come up with something "sharable".

- God knows I've wanted to do things to companies that have dicked me over. Just to teach them a lesson.
- And I know I've been attracted to previous GF's sisters...boy did that play with my head.
- And as a dirty little teen, I've thought that if I just cut a little circle into that store window...
- The paranoia that goes thru my head when my wife says, "We have to talk..."
And so much more...

 

Interesting topic. I know I randomly get thoughts about doing things I would never EVER really do. Like have someone standing next to me talking and thinking "what would they do if I punched them right in the face?" When, in reality, they are someone that I actually like and the conversation we are having is completely mundane. Or driving down the road and thinking about literally running someone off the road, and not in a 'road rage' kind of way, just in a 'what if I did that?' kind of way. I think I generally have pretty good impulse control, and I usually try to shove those thoughts out of my noggin. I can't remember any time I thought something like that then really seriously considered doing it.

I think some people follow through on those impulses because they have an actual emotional or mental problem. I think others follow through on them because they feed their mind on those thoughts, or thoughts like them, more than is healthy. I hate the copout that "violent videogames/death metal/gory movies made me do it". But I do think that IF someone is on the edge anyway, filling their brain with those things desensitizes them and makes them more likely to go that route.

 

Yes, there has been debate for years...back & forth, as to what causes this.
Now, agreed..."some" have issues...emotional, mental, chemical, drug...whatever.

But somewhere, I think in the back of my head...I believe it's random to a certain extent.
There is NO reason nor rhyme...it's just that sometimes it happens, someone is stupid enough to followup on these outrageous thoughts.
Could be something provoking it at the time, anger, envy...even a sense of justice.
But still...maybe half the soap opera people of all types put themselves through...or you have to deal with them directly or indirectly,
is because just by chance...they act. (big bads, little bads...or just pure silly thoughts)

Your Crazy doesn't have to be bad or evil...your Crazy could be...I think I just saw a ghost. (is it real?? who knows?)
Or rationalizing something totally off the wall.

Have you been ever talking to a person, completely normal...then something totally absurb comes out of their mouths in full sincerity, if not passion?

And it doesn't have to be even sincere...but just a thought process, or something that's fun inside your head.
Any one remember "Pet Rocks"?? uh...a rock that's a pet???

Hell, even I...Mr. Science on-the-side...when I walked my dogs this winter at my new place, there were a couple of trees, bent over in an arc to the ground.
Natural, totally random. You could walk underneath them as if they were a archway.
Well, I thought in my imagination, "what if" these were gateways to parallel dimensions. In all fun, enjoying the romantic notion.
I walked underneath with my dog, just to "see". Everything was the same.

Hmph...well then I made sure I walked back just the opposite, it just felt "right". Just in case, I needed to "get back" correctly.
Then a couple of days ago...I found the gardeners had cut the tree tops off...letting the base go back up into the air.
Aw man...they fucked it up, they ruined the "gate".
In all seriousness, I was completely bummed and disappointed. And with a pout, life moved on...

Now, did I "really" think they were literally gates? No, not at all.
First, there was no direct obervation or experience in my "test". So that invalidated the "scientific" theory.
But truly, I didn't think so.
But it was a crazy thought...in my head. I was fun, a nice symbolism, a warmth, like a toy a kid plays with.
But my emotions were truly there...I can't deny that.

 

"Don't stick your dick in crazy."

I always wonder if I'm the crazy one. I have bizarro nuts thoughts as a kid that I've seen come to pass as an adult. I know that I just cannot act on them any more than I can act of the lazy behaviors that rest inside of me.

I'm not 40, I'm all that I was, 10, 15, 18, 21, 26, 30, 36, 40, 42. I'm all of these things that culminate in me being me.

 

I agree...to a certain extent.
While I can instantly think about punching someone out.
Or even imagine to kill them with a bullet to the head in a sense of justice. (for a evil killer, for example)

I cannot consider making people suffer, even in my head, even if they are the worst person on Earth.
In my mind, get it over and done with quickly if you are going to take any action...even in my imagination.

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I've found that even people who are supposedly grounded in FACT that they can rationalize or consider weird things.

For example, scientists trying to prove string theory, which requires more dimensions, will say that the dimensions
shrank away sometime in the past...or are speeding away faster than the speed of light, which is why we only have 4.
They punt, and come up with a "story" to cover their lack of something substantial.
(BTW, I'm not saying this theory is wrong, it's just their definitions are not based on reality, here & now)

Or Bill Maher, who is supposedly an Atheist, hates religion, looks down upon other with distain if they expree any religious idea,
will state in all sincerity publically on-air and multiple times, that he is "Half-Jewish".
How???
It's a religion.
Even if you go by traditional definitions, with his mother being Jewish, he doesn't practice... he is NOT Jewish.
Even if you go by culture, he doesn't practice...he wasn't raised it, he father dominated his upbringing which was Christian, which he hates, Not Jewish.
And it's not genetic...it's a faith.
Maybe even if you called yourself "somewhat" Jewish, because you believe in or practice a little...so that would be fair, so be it.
But you cannot hate religion/faith, call yourself a full Atheist, not be raised it...and just because one of your parents was...call yourself "Half" of anything.

Crazy in your head can happen to anyone, anytime, anywhere...even the most sober/factual of us.
Actually some of the most sober can be the worst...you just don't know it.
(hear the phrase before?? "He was just a nice man...")

 

Or you can simply shit on other planets.

/talk about leaving a mark. Sirius the Dog-star would appreciate it though.