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Discussion in 'Tilted Life and Sexuality' started by girldetective, Apr 28, 2013.

  1. girldetective

    girldetective Getting Tilted

    In a different post, rough49 wrote:
    But I guess you have to experience Wonderland to know you don't want to be there.
    I'd rather be Forest Gump, than his Jenny.

    Having been Forest-like most of my life, Ive met someone who challenges that, less modern bride more reality. Its an uncomfortable boundary for me, accepting things I really know nothing about and trusting the best in a person. Its suddenly scary and provocative shit for me. Having deep feelings for someone and wondering about their intentions is awful gunk. Does one look into the future, knowing they cannot see it, or does one look at the present. How much do present time feelings count vs past trangressions? When does one forget, or do they and how do they? Having been sheltered, how does one know if something is just too weirdass? How does one explain bruises or bite marks as just fun play, without getting questions suggesting danger? And how far does one let their lover go? And then what if youre finding that you cant get enough and daydream about being slavewife. What if you would give up almost anything for 1 person? Then, what the fuck do you do, admit youre mentally ill? As I say, insight can be a terrible thing.
     
    girldetective, Apr 28, 2013
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  2. rogue49

    rogue49 Tech Kung Fu Artist Staff Member

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    I'm rough?? :p

    In all seriousness...what I meant by this was ...there are many things that flash through your brain & heart.
    It's up to you what you do when the far-side appears how far you want to let it go.

    Jenny dove deep...and it sucked her in. She allowed the abuse to happen to her...and she also followed it.
    Forrest had strange occurences happen too...but he ignored the darker side...He didn't favor it.
    And did what had to be done, when it needed to be done. But he didn't judge, except when someone he cared for was to be harmed.

    I've seen the dark side...and the bit I've involved myself with, I thought surreal and didn't like it. I don't favor it.
    I'm not going to judge...I just know what I like and don't like...I don't follow the rabbit down the hole these days.

    I don't care about others' judgement, I set my own terms...and I hope others do so with me.
    But since some do judge...there is some discretion. You don't share in the workplace and with friends, you see who can absorb certain info.

    In the end, I would assume that it's do on to others as you would have them do onto you.
    But even then, you need to understand there are some limits...and consequences.

    The only transgressions I burden myself with are those where I've accidentally been selfish and tred on others.
    Those I remember forever and in turn attempt to be a more thoughtful person.
     
    rogue49, Apr 28, 2013
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