Consumed
 

All consuming, these feeling pouring through me.
I don't know where to turn,
I am so confused, knowing not what to do.
Rage and passion flaming brightly,
jealousy and pride, keeping me from admitting
cetain truths that hurt to much.
I am yours and you don't want me!
I am consumed, engulfed in so many feelings:
hatred, love
happiness, anger
sorrow, passion
but the deepest one is betrayal!
I feel so betrayed by you.
You take what you want from me and
without looking back you just break away,
Almost as if I meant nothing,
what we shared meant nothing at all.
You are on a path of self-destruction,
and you are destroying so much in your path including me
and so many other friends, so many other people.
My dreams no longer move me,
they no longer offer the solace they once did.
So silently I will cry knowing that in every end there is a beginning
knowing that I have yet to find my new beginning.
It is so hard to imagine a beginning without you.
I am so consumed by you that I can barely breathe,
let alone think or to even try to imagine anything!

Feeling the pain, sharing the thoughts helps I hope.

i'm touched. wonderful writing.

Amazing work, as usual. I'm impressed by the beauty and power of your words.

Talk to the person. They might feel differently than you think--they may not be looking for a new beginning yet either.

I don't know what to say.....I share your pain because I've been going through something similar for months now. New beginnings are everywhere, don't stop looking. Even though you feel you have lost everything, you must keep at least a shred of hope.

oh wow.

This is so what I am going thru right now. What is possible is mindblowing and he walked away because he is scared of falling in love (?).

Now I am falling apart.

I like the way you write. This was a very moving piece for me. Thanks for sharing

Parts of this hit so close to home it's frightening. Very moving work, thanks.