i have sent the link to the post above to her.

i really dont think she will want to talk to me after reading it, and that fact is making me so sick i cant hardly move.

maybe one day she will forgive me. till then im going to lay down and drink myself into stupidity. that could be a long time haha

but omg im so nervous and sick. how can the love of a girl mean so much that it makes a person nervous and nauseaous at the very idea that that love may be gone?

she says her love for me wont change. i believe in her.

it doesnt stop me feeling so sick i think im going to hurl.

please baby. read it all and think of me and trust me... i love you.
i love you so much that if my presence causes you pain, i will remove myself from you forever.

or maybe i should just realise the fact that i cant seem to ignore.

i dont have what it takes to be with a girl. I am too selfish or ignorant or something.

maybe thats what all this is trying to show me.

i can love. and i can be loved.

but i cant be lived with.

maybe thats why im so sick in the stomach.

yea. by the looks of it, i have gone too far. i hurt her.

im sorry girl.

im so so very sorry.

love makes you see that mistake. you love her and dont want to hurt her, therefore its makes us see as much as we let ourselves see, but until then we are the ones that tie the blindfold unto ourselves.

well its all over with her, cos of something that i have only just woken up too.


i wanted her to be like someone i knew a few years ago. That someone is a special girl that i let slip through my fingers. I dont plan on letting that happen again.

Ever again.

So im going to go to canada and get this girl back. She is what i have always wanted, she is my dream come true, and now i look back, she is the person i wrote that letter for.